Italy is so deliciously beautiful and romantic that I would eat it whole. Yum!
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Mom
Today, I'm craving quiet nights in, lounging on my own furniture, in an apartment that I can call my own. I crave candles and music and wine with old friends. I want a closet that houses the clothes I love, not the clothes I managed to fit into two suitcases. I want photographs on my walls, a happy dog by my feet and flowers in my yard.
Mom has been visiting for the past week and with her has brought the family love that only mothers can bring. Her proximity has made me think of home. Of building a home. Of finding a place to call my own. For years, I've lived in flats that aren't mine, sat on furniture I didn't pick out, sorted through boxes and clothes that have been scattered across three countries. I don't have a proper GP or Dentist. I have a cell phone in California and one in the UK. My permanent address changes depending on the landing card I'm filling out. Life has been a series of airports, airplanes, 1 year leases, weekend trips, assignments, projects and temporary plans. There hasn't been a long-term anything in my vocabulary for nearly two years now.
It has been a marvelous adventure.
But these days, I've been thinking more and more about building a nest. And finding a love that even time will stand still for.
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Mom: how are the titas?
me: they are well. 
they are entertaining themselves at westminster abbey this afternoon
Mom: good. i can’t wait to see them
me: they are good fun. at lunch we talked about how you were pregnant with me by the time you got married in the church LOL!
Mom: you silly!
me: auntie josie confirmed it! i can do the math!
Mom: of all topics denise!
me: why didn’t you use protection?!?!
Mom: because we weren’t as smart as you, smart ass!
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Mothers are amazing people. And mine surprised me today. She defied all of my pre-conceptions about traditional Asian parents and instead provided the kind of understanding and support that blew me away. I’ve been working through some pretty big life decisions lately and when I came to her for some guidance, she listened with an open heart and gave her full blessing and support in whatever path I decide to take. It made me realize that all we really want and need in this world is some empathy and understanding, and tonight, that kind of love came from my mom. And without her knowing it, she liberated me from a million insecurities and she lifted the weight of emotional neediness just by being open and giving enough to react with compassion, as opposed to fear. I know that she deliberately acted against her parental instinct and really made an effort to see things through my eyes and it made all the difference in the world. She set me free from my own fears and infused a strength in me that no one else ever has. How powerful a parent’s love to their child. Within the course of an afternoon, my mom’s unwavering support lifted me farther than any man’s love or affections ever could. Today, true love came from my mama.
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It was a weekend in Prague with Mama this week. She came to London for work and play. We’d work all day and walk, chat, eat all night. It reminded me a lot of our Paris days many summers ago.
Praha had the potential to be a bit of a disaster. Mostly because of me and my absentmindedness. On Friday I took us to the wrong airport! There are four of them in London, all going to the same destinations! Yeesh. We went to Gatwick instead of Heathrow. I couldn’t even believe it. Mum looked like she was ready to kill me and I could not believe I could have been SO stupid! I ended up buying is new flights that left early the next morning. When Mom decided that she was talking to me again, it turned out to be an OK evening.
Saturday morning we were off bright and early. Praha is gorgeous. I can describe it as a child’s birthday cake on steroids. It’s colourful, whimsical, like it came right out of a fairytale. We took a day tour so that we could cover everything in the little time that we had. It is such a fun city to photograph, especially from the clock tower. =)
Another city down in the list of millions of places to see in this great big world!
Thanks Mama! For the company, the patience and the girly time away. I’ve missed it.
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